This is so easy for me to type and even say, but to actually live it....totally different story!!
FEAR has been a part of my life for as long as I can remember.
As a child, I slept with a nightlight even through my high school years. It was a clown with red, blue, and yellow balloons. My mom still has it in my bedroom.
I was born with a mild form of Cerebral Palsy in my left side so I was very shy as a kid. I didn't want to be noticed for FEAR of others realizing that I was different.
One little boy did realize I was different, and in first grade, he made fun of me in front of the entire class. I am in my thirites now and I still remember it like it was yesterday.
FEAR kept me from having fun on family vacations. I wouldn't ride roller coasters, I wouldn't get in the lake, I wouldn't swim in the deep end. What if the roller coaster dropped me? What if there was a snake in the lake? What if the water in the deep end sucked me down? Irrational I know, but very real at the same time to me at that age.
FEAR kept me from trying out for the basketball team growing up...what would people think about me and my disability? Would they make fun of me again? Would I even be good enough to make the team? Would I fail? To this day I regret not at least trying because I will never know.
FEAR kept me from singing in front of others growing up. It would always bring up the same doubts....are you good enough? What will they say? Will they laugh? Will you fail?
I will tell you guys a secret...the only reason I have even started singing in front of people now, it hasn't even been 10 years yet, is because someone happened to hear me at the church my husband and I had just started attending. He was the worship leader there. She asked him in front of our entire small group why I wasn't on stage singing too...the truth was, he didn't really know that I could sing because I had not even shared that part of me with him.
FEAR..it paralyzes you and lies to you. It makes you miss out on so much. It tries to bully you and tell you what you aren't, what you can't do.
Through my journey with the Lord, He is teaching me that there is something we can walk in that is greater than FEAR and that even though I used to live life that way, I can make a change....do you know what it is?
FAITH is more powerful than FEAR ever thought about being. We just have to choose which one we want to activate and walk in.
Fear is false evidence appearing real, BUT, FAITH is believing without seeing, trusting that something amazing is about to happen!
The Bible is very clear on the power of FAITH.
Matthew 17: 20 is Jesus talking. He says that all we need is FAITH the size of a mustard seed and we can say to the mountain to move and it will move...for NOTHING would be impossible!
You know what nothing means? NOTHING!
That is so encouraging to me to know that my God says that nothing is impossible...so why not try? Why not go for it? Why not punch fear in the face and do it anyway?
He also tells us in Isaiah 41: 10 to fear not because He is with us. He will strengthen us, He will help us, and He will hold us up with His righteous right hand!
He's got us guys and He wants to help us to go and live our life with the gifts and talents He has given us.
He reminds me constantly that He didn't give me the gifts and talents that He has for me to sit in a chair, hide, and do nothing.
He gave these gifts and talents to us to GO and shine His light and His hope to this world who desperately needs it.
When He created you and me, He created us with what we have on purpose for a purpose.
So...are you ready?....ready or not, we are doing this....it's time y'all....
It's time to step out and do it afraid!